I had just spent a month in a place where I had no magic. I was drugged and alone and disoriented and I felt really ... powerless. Then I was just released back into Hell and Landon and I were talking about some things that happened back home. Things that I couldn't stop because I was too busy being evil and ...
[She shakes her head as she tucks her hair behind her ear.]
I guess I thought I needed it to be more in control. Or if I didn't break it, someone would steal the magic for themselves. Which makes no sense because I knew that it didn't matter who broke it - the magic would rebound back into me no matter what.
[She looks up at her mom, trying not to seem like a kid who's worried about getting into trouble.]
It doesn't really matter because I wasn't thinking about Lizzie or the consequences, or any of that. All I wanted was to feel powerful, and I couldn't get it out of my head.
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I had just spent a month in a place where I had no magic. I was drugged and alone and disoriented and I felt really ... powerless. Then I was just released back into Hell and Landon and I were talking about some things that happened back home. Things that I couldn't stop because I was too busy being evil and ...
[She shakes her head as she tucks her hair behind her ear.]
I guess I thought I needed it to be more in control. Or if I didn't break it, someone would steal the magic for themselves. Which makes no sense because I knew that it didn't matter who broke it - the magic would rebound back into me no matter what.
[She looks up at her mom, trying not to seem like a kid who's worried about getting into trouble.]
It doesn't really matter because I wasn't thinking about Lizzie or the consequences, or any of that. All I wanted was to feel powerful, and I couldn't get it out of my head.