He shrugs and shakes his head. For this, he's not sure he does have a good answer. Or at least, not a delicate one.
"Imelda's not losing anything from me. She doesn't want me. Her family doesn't want me. And I'm dead. Dead dead. There's nothing left of me back there, not even memory. I'm only betraying myself, the part of myself that- that wishes I belonged with her."
And he's gone over that, how little difference it makes. It's not that he's stopped fighting himself about it. He's just too tired for it.
"Nekane always knew how I felt about Imelda and my family. They've never tried to replace her. I think if they could, they'd fix things for me theirself, even now, but it's not as if I'm not wishing the best for them too." Hopefully they'll get out. Hopefully, they'll get out of here and the mess they wound up in in their own world. "The way I love them, the way I love Imelda, it's not the same. I can't run out. It is like splitting life in two, I won't deny that, but you're not taking love from the one to give to the other. You're not asking them to be what you had. You just... feel it. Whatever thing is between you as you both are now. And you do what you can. What else is there to do but just give up?"
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"Imelda's not losing anything from me. She doesn't want me. Her family doesn't want me. And I'm dead. Dead dead. There's nothing left of me back there, not even memory. I'm only betraying myself, the part of myself that- that wishes I belonged with her."
And he's gone over that, how little difference it makes. It's not that he's stopped fighting himself about it. He's just too tired for it.
"Nekane always knew how I felt about Imelda and my family. They've never tried to replace her. I think if they could, they'd fix things for me theirself, even now, but it's not as if I'm not wishing the best for them too." Hopefully they'll get out. Hopefully, they'll get out of here and the mess they wound up in in their own world. "The way I love them, the way I love Imelda, it's not the same. I can't run out. It is like splitting life in two, I won't deny that, but you're not taking love from the one to give to the other. You're not asking them to be what you had. You just... feel it. Whatever thing is between you as you both are now. And you do what you can. What else is there to do but just give up?"