[ Huffing, her arms cross again as she leans back in her chair. "Stop pretending," he says. Like it's so easy! Pretending is all she's used to. And as she'd let slip during therapy, showing her real self never seemed to go well. It was all more incentive to keep letting people only see her carefully curated self.
A look of consternation comes across her face as she unwittingly thinks about what he says even more. Being alone was the ultimate fear. Everything she'd done so far in her short, poor excuse of a life was meant to escape it. Yet look where she'd ended up...
Monika glances over at Kaiba, and after a moment, some of the obvious tension she'd built up in her shoulders seems to fade. ]
Maybe I don't need love. But...I still want it. It's all I've ever known. At least if I have someone, all the bad stuff isn't so bad. [ Her lips pucker as she attempts to fight a frown. She doesn't really succeed, because she knows that's not entirely true. ] I don't know how to be alone and okay at the same time. Not when my first introduction to living was the realization that I was never meant to have a normal life.
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[ Huffing, her arms cross again as she leans back in her chair. "Stop pretending," he says. Like it's so easy! Pretending is all she's used to. And as she'd let slip during therapy, showing her real self never seemed to go well. It was all more incentive to keep letting people only see her carefully curated self.
A look of consternation comes across her face as she unwittingly thinks about what he says even more. Being alone was the ultimate fear. Everything she'd done so far in her short, poor excuse of a life was meant to escape it. Yet look where she'd ended up...
Monika glances over at Kaiba, and after a moment, some of the obvious tension she'd built up in her shoulders seems to fade. ]
Maybe I don't need love. But...I still want it. It's all I've ever known. At least if I have someone, all the bad stuff isn't so bad. [ Her lips pucker as she attempts to fight a frown. She doesn't really succeed, because she knows that's not entirely true. ] I don't know how to be alone and okay at the same time. Not when my first introduction to living was the realization that I was never meant to have a normal life.