Ahaha, that's totally noble and selfless of you, thinking about things like that.

[ It was something Monika could hardly relate to, though she appreciated someone was so determined to free them all. But still. Boring. ]

But does that mean you have to subject yourself to boredom because there's a slim chance you might actually get free at some point? Kinda sounds like you're making yourself suffer for no reason in the meantime.

[ Like, she totally gets that. She'd done the self-flagellation after being an absolute horror. But it was okay to be happy sometimes! Really! ]