My powers didn't work! I couldn't heal! I couldn't -- I couldn't do anything but kill people, that's all I'd been doing! I was supposed to be a healer - you and Laurie wanted me to be a healer!

[ his breath hitches. ]

And then I couldn't save Laurie. I couldn't save Kevin, I couldn't save myself! People came to me for healing and I couldn't fucking do anything Julian! I could sense every cell in their body dying, and I couldn't fucking save them!