I could kill you, right now. ( pointedly, the fingers around josh squeeze just a bit tighter. restrict his airways for a moment before julian lets up again. ) Just like you could kill me in a fucking instant if you wanted to. You're not.

( but he gets it. the lack of control. julian--had a few episodes of his own where his telekinesis just wouldn't fucking listen. losing his hands was one of them; he used them to direct energy. without them, he had nothing to direct with. it was aimless, good for nothing but destruction. until he fixed it. )

I'm no healer. But I get what it's like to not be able to save people. ( he couldn't save jay. or goddamn anyone else. never could. it was foley they relied on for that, and-- ) So your everything went on the fritz. Do you think that means we wouldn't have wanted you around? 'cause that's bullshit.