[ He's feeling a little bit uncomfortable, but it will definitely take more than that for him to try protesting the nice, safe, strong embrace. The other man's cheek resting against the top of his head leaves him confused and surprised again; such gentleness, instead of being yanked around or hit. He feels himself relaxing further, despite feeling tears trying to well up in his eyes again. He blinks it away, focuses on breathing, tries to process everything he's hearing. ]
[ Unfortunately, it's not the reassuring part that he zones in on. Instead, all he can think of is how he'll still be bogging people down even here, unless they decide to leave him behind to fend for himself. He doesn't want that, he wants someone to protect him, but at the same time, he hates himself for needing it, and he hates being a burden as well. ]
But I am. [ His shoulders shake a little as he loses the fight and tears start rolling down his cheeks again, quietly this time, though there's a little hitch in his breath as he speaks. Mutters, more like, as if part of him hopes the other man won't hear it, while another is desperately trying to be heard and reassured. ] I'm not brave. I'm not-- anything... I really am worthless...
[ He's braver than he knows, but of course he doesn't see it himself, even after everything. ]
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[ Unfortunately, it's not the reassuring part that he zones in on. Instead, all he can think of is how he'll still be bogging people down even here, unless they decide to leave him behind to fend for himself. He doesn't want that, he wants someone to protect him, but at the same time, he hates himself for needing it, and he hates being a burden as well. ]
But I am. [ His shoulders shake a little as he loses the fight and tears start rolling down his cheeks again, quietly this time, though there's a little hitch in his breath as he speaks. Mutters, more like, as if part of him hopes the other man won't hear it, while another is desperately trying to be heard and reassured. ] I'm not brave. I'm not-- anything... I really am worthless...
[ He's braver than he knows, but of course he doesn't see it himself, even after everything. ]