[ Let the past die, kill it if you have to. If only it was ever that easy, if only the past would stay where it was meant to, rather than haunting your every step -- wind up shoved in your face by Hell and it's minions. If only he was as good at taking his own advice. But it always catches up, and as he drums his fingers on the chair, Kylo swears he can see his father's gaze, both sorrowful and forgiving before he died. That's not on the table for this discussion.
Does he read Jesse's irritation? Maybe a little bit. But he doesn't acknowledge it as his anger rises. ]
It's what they want. But I have been here for two years now and have yet to see what point that talking about it has done. How any of this is atonement.
[ Kylo pulls up his sleeve of his left arm, words are carved into his skin. Murder, it says. You want sins? Fine. ]
I've killed people. Sometimes on orders, other times not. It's war, none of us are entirely innocent. There was a man, I was apprenticed to... someone I once believed held my best interests when nobody else did. But he soon grew tired of me, never able to live up to his expectations no matter what I did -- and he underestimated what I could do and my loyalty, so I killed him.
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[ Let the past die, kill it if you have to. If only it was ever that easy, if only the past would stay where it was meant to, rather than haunting your every step -- wind up shoved in your face by Hell and it's minions. If only he was as good at taking his own advice. But it always catches up, and as he drums his fingers on the chair, Kylo swears he can see his father's gaze, both sorrowful and forgiving before he died. That's not on the table for this discussion.
Does he read Jesse's irritation? Maybe a little bit. But he doesn't acknowledge it as his anger rises. ]
It's what they want. But I have been here for two years now and have yet to see what point that talking about it has done. How any of this is atonement.
[ Kylo pulls up his sleeve of his left arm, words are carved into his skin. Murder, it says. You want sins? Fine. ]
I've killed people. Sometimes on orders, other times not. It's war, none of us are entirely innocent. There was a man, I was apprenticed to... someone I once believed held my best interests when nobody else did. But he soon grew tired of me, never able to live up to his expectations no matter what I did -- and he underestimated what I could do and my loyalty, so I killed him.