He knows L.L well, he had been with him during some of those childhood moments. Walked through fields of bodies, helped carry Nunnally on his back. Never a good a liar as Lelouch was. Unable to hide the horrors he was seeing from his voice.

But L.L was a master in it, even though Suzaku can see through the lies right now. It was his fault, L.L was going to die and it would be because Suzaku pushed him into the jaws of death. Another betrayal.

For a friend who he had already hurt more than anyone should hurt another person. "It is. Stop trying to forgive me."

He's still now, not moving a muscle. He can be still, he is a soldier. It won't be enough though, he knows. It won't stop him trying.