He nodded, eyes down at the summery. It was easier, in sex as in life for other people to take charge. Left to his own devices he had only ever made mistakes, caused grief and trouble and why would it be any different honestly.
L.L's suggestion sounded good. Sounded better than good, he moves to obey before he even finishes talking, resuming his kisses on his stomach. But L.L is still talking, more questions. His chin lifted to look at L.L directly once more.
He's not sure if so many questions were a usual part of sex or if he just was forever cursed to fall into bed with those who demanded he look deep into himself and answer difficult questions.
Because he had hadn't he? Wanted L.L like this. Before today. Back on Lucifer's island, even though they had been drugged then too... But since then...
"Yes." He nodded. "I did... I... Didn't think you'd want..." At least not when he was not drugged. But here he was, lying in bed.
"I don't hate you." He had once. But now when he looks back he's mostly sad. Both of them did so much wrong, to each other and the world. "I won't hate you for this."
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L.L's suggestion sounded good. Sounded better than good, he moves to obey before he even finishes talking, resuming his kisses on his stomach. But L.L is still talking, more questions. His chin lifted to look at L.L directly once more.
He's not sure if so many questions were a usual part of sex or if he just was forever cursed to fall into bed with those who demanded he look deep into himself and answer difficult questions.
Because he had hadn't he? Wanted L.L like this. Before today. Back on Lucifer's island, even though they had been drugged then too... But since then...
"Yes." He nodded. "I did... I... Didn't think you'd want..." At least not when he was not drugged. But here he was, lying in bed.
"I don't hate you." He had once. But now when he looks back he's mostly sad. Both of them did so much wrong, to each other and the world. "I won't hate you for this."
How could he?