( Caroline needed to ease into the topic, but she knows what's welcome and what Elena is waiting for. )
It was years ago, we were still in college. ( She meets Elena's eyes. ) I - couldn't handle pain I was feeling after my mom died. Cancer. There was nothing we could do. And, instead of admitting to you, to Stefan, to anyone about what I was feeling, how deep my pain went, I ignored it and made the executive decision.
It's not that I - regret it, because who knows what would've happened had I not made that choice, would I still have my girls. But. I did it. I'm sorry, Elena, that you have to hear that, that any me could disappoint you. That's not me anymore. I go to therapy now.
( And she still finds how to compartmentalize. She still has kids. She's still a parent. )
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It was years ago, we were still in college. ( She meets Elena's eyes. ) I - couldn't handle pain I was feeling after my mom died. Cancer. There was nothing we could do. And, instead of admitting to you, to Stefan, to anyone about what I was feeling, how deep my pain went, I ignored it and made the executive decision.
It's not that I - regret it, because who knows what would've happened had I not made that choice, would I still have my girls. But. I did it. I'm sorry, Elena, that you have to hear that, that any me could disappoint you. That's not me anymore. I go to therapy now.
( And she still finds how to compartmentalize. She still has kids. She's still a parent. )