holeinwall: (Can't be held responsible for my actions)
just monika. ([personal profile] holeinwall) wrote in [community profile] penancememes 2022-11-07 03:44 pm (UTC)

cw: suicidal ideation sort of?

Okay, maybe I'm understating things.

[ Her tone's suddenly sounding serious. Or perhaps as empty as she sometimes feels inside. ]

The first few times, sure. It's not so bad. But once you're in the double digits? Permanent death seems preferable. If I don't have enough to keep me occupied during the recovery period, I'll wish for it sometimes.

[ ...She's never told anyone that. But anyway. ]

Laugh about it now all you want. This place'll chew you up and spit you out eventually.

[ After snagging her coffee back up, she takes a long drink then clutches the cup under her blanket. For the first time, she's truly feeling the cold. A glance at the spirit next to her is reminding her of how literal that chewing up and spitting out is. ]

Oh, and. [ She flashes a mildly mocking smile at him. ] You're welcome.

[ Quietly, she mutters: ] And thanks for reminding me of the times I've been stabbed to death.

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